your life is beautiful

To see what He sees

I mentioned a while ago that we had some photos taken while we were in North Carolina, and yesterday I got the CD of the finished products through the mail slot in our front door. Excited, I popped it into the computer while Adlai pushed himself around the kitchen floor in his walker.  When they’d all loaded, I held my breath as I selected “View as Slideshow.”

Can I be honest?

As the images ticked by, one by one, my smile faded.

I saw a girl who’s carrying leftover baby weight, who’s not trying hard enough to not do the squinty-eyed smile that comes too naturally.  I turned off the computer and moped around the house for a bit, disappointed.

But later, as I played with Adlai on the floor, throwing myself a quiet little pity party, I heard God say, “Look again.”

So I did.

And in that squinty-eyed smile, I saw a girl who’s really and truly happy to have just about everything she’s ever wished for.

In the curvy hips and too-round face, I saw the sort of battle scars of the year I have spent nurturing my son – first inside my body, and now here, in the flesh.

And finally, I saw what I believe God most wanted me to see: not my own shortcomings, but His abundant blessings in my life.  A husband who looks at me like I’m the most beautiful woman in the world, and a son whose smile brings me a depth of joy I never knew was possible.

Photos by Ashley Perry Photography

12 Responses to “To see what He sees”

  1. Gail (Kniffen) Martin

    I wish I’d had a chance to see you when you were home. Your writing is so good to read – I can “hear” you saying these things. You are absolutely beautiful inside and out. God’s love shines from you and warms even in pictures. Adlai is precious. The pictures of your family are really beautiful with love being evident in each one.

    Reply

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

Basic HTML is allowed. Your email address will not be published.

Subscribe to this comment feed via RSS