I am.

January 23, 2013

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Some days, everything just hurts.

I am tired and sensitive and easily offended.  I am sure I am a selfish wife and a lazy mother and a rubbish friend. And I feel too weak to carry all the weight this world asks us to bear.

On those days of hurt feelings and two-year-old temper tantrums, of ruined plans and crap weather, everything that’s broken in me cries out, “Who am I?”

And often, honestly, I hear my words hit the wall.

But on the days when I am quiet enough to catch it, if the TV is off and my phone is on silent and I really want to know the answer, I can hear Him say, “I will tell you.”

Because only He knows.  Only He has it written down – scrawled in steadfast, permanent ink.

Not wife or mother or friend.  Not artist, not writer, and certainly not try-hard, wannabe, failure.

Only daughter.  Only His.

And here I can let go.  And close the curtains.  And rest. In the knowledge that my shortfalls and my setbacks do not define me. My weakness has not changed what is written, what cannot be erased.

Who He says that I am.

18 responses to “I am.”

  1. larkandbloom says:

    Faith, wow! I so needed this today. Beautiful.

  2. Faith says:

    Ugh, thank you Liz…I am so emotional today, so I just cried. Again.

  3. What a relief! I love how we can Rest in that truth! Thanks Faith!

  4. Carol says:

    It’s funny how you get what you need when you need it. All in His timing. Beautiful and timely words. Thank you.

  5. Liam Pickford says:

    You perhaps have no idea how far your smile goes to encourage, or how your eyes, sparkling with appreciation when you say thank you convey the authenticity of those thanks. So far from being a crap friend, you’re a good one & a sweet sister. This, no doubt, flows from your identity as Dad’s daughter…

  6. Jennifleur says:

    So helpful. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing – this has softened and comforted the heart of one who often feels the same. We are His x

  7. Sarah says:

    Wish I would have seen this earlier today. So good.

  8. very sweetly put … I try to sing amazing grace every day and I always sing .. amazing grace how sweet the sound … that loved a girl like me

  9. Beautifully chosen words and phrases, it really hit base. I understand the frustrated feeling and the feeling of inadequacy on those type of days. It was raw and it was sweet.

  10. Courtney says:

    So beautiful. Even on your “worst” days, you manage to pull at my heartstrings with your words. You’re so talented! It’s sad to hear when your friends are struggling, but it’s nice to know that we are all human. We all struggle. But His grace is sufficient. Sending up extra prayers for you today. xxx

  11. Viki says:

    How do you write such beautiful words when so emotional? If it helps, I love who you are, I love that you share these feelings, it makes you more loveable. Xx

  12. Kaela Moore says:

    Beautiful! We are His and only He defines us.

  13. Leigh Anne says:

    exactly what I needed to hear today… every day.

  14. misharona says:

    you are lush miss faith. you are. you are my friend and i know i will learn lots from and with you this year. keep being you. keep taking those little risks your heart knows is good for it. and the big ones. fear doesn’t mean you cant do it. just do it. every day is a new adventure. clean slate. white page. make it up. reinvent yourself. live undefined. unfettered.

  15. Reblogged this on Chronicles of the Immaculately Polished and commented:
    I wanted to share this motivational message from another blogger that I follow. It’s almost as if the words were taken directly off on my on thoughts. Please read and perhaps you too will remember your true purpose in life. Enjoy…

  16. A beautiful reminder…thank you!

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