It’s not stalking if you’re related.
As an addition to this week’s obsessions, can I just say I’m obsessed with watching my baby sleep?
I’m not saying that in a joking, “oh-my-gosh, I’m totally obsessed with my baby!” way. I actually think I’m obsessed. Like, I have a problem.
When Adlai was just a couple of weeks old, I emailed some of my mama friends and told them I had a problem – that I kept waking up in the middle of the night, holding my finger below his nostrils to make sure I could feel his hot little breath, using the light of my cell phone to watch his chest rise and fall in the middle of the night. I asked them if this was normal. They told me it was.
Thankfully, three months later, I sleep a bit better. But I still check. And when he’s taking his usual marathon afternoon nap, I’m up and down the stairs to our room on an every-15-minute basis. Just to check. Just to watch him. Just to see his tiny little mouth moving in a dream-sucking-state (I’m pretty sure he’s having visions of a giant boob).
When does it end? When he’s a year old? Five years? Ten?
When he’s eighteen, will I drive to his dorm room and peek in the window, just to be sure he’s still breathing? (And that there are no skanky girls in there?)
Faith,
Have you ever read the book “Love You Forever”? This book describes exactly what you are talking about! And I can totally relate.
My daughter just turned 3, and I still check every night before I go to bed (as does my husband, but he would never admit it).
I cherish those 2 mins that I steal into her room, and give her a kiss, re-tuck her in, and tell her I love her. During those peaceful moments, I remember all the good things about being a Mummy, and the worries, the stress, and the insanity of the day are forgotten. Even if it is for just those 2 minutes.
Enjoy your precious boy, I know eventually my daughter will request a lock for her door, and our midnight kisses will be gone.
There are occasions, I still (9 months later) shine my little cell phone several times a night just to make sure she’s still there, breathing…
i’m still obsessed. just wait til there is two…never thought i could be that obsessed about another one. but i am. its awesome. and i want more….in a few years. yikes!
i think the kind of attachment that wants to be connected when Adlai is sleeping doesn’t make you just normal. it’s super! actually i am impressed you can let him sleep upstairs! 🙂 i had to hold my little one for the afternoon nap for about 6 months, i think. got little done besides eat lunch (plate on the boppy), watch TV, and/or nap myself. couldn’t. put her. down.