To bloom, I must be planted.

April 27, 2009

When I got engaged two and half years ago and told my mom I was moving to England, she said she’d known all along; that she’d begun preparing herself when I was still a young teenager for the day I would inevitably leave the nest with gusto.

I’ve always prided myself on being a nomad, never content to settle down, to be still, to plant my feet too firmly. And so I haven’t really known how to handle the change that’s been taking place in me lately: an unfamiliar longing for a home, a place to stay and call my own. I am a renter, a mover, an anti-planner who fears commitment in all its forms; at least, that’s who I’ve always been.

But who says people can’t change? 

I want to paint my walls, plant a garden, and prepare a nursery.  I want to start ministries at my church that I know I can see through. I want to stock my house with comfy furniture and not worry about where I’ll store it when I go on my next jaunt. I’m tired, at last, of moving and shaking; I’ve reached that point I thought would never come, when I want to plant my feet and bloom.

4 responses to “To bloom, I must be planted.”

  1. J says:

    Does this mean what I think it means… staying put in JoCo?!?!?!!!!!!?!?!?!

    • atomicblonde says:

      Actually, probably not….it just means wherever we happen to go next will probably be where we stick around for a while. xx

  2. mama says:

    I couldn’t have said it better. You can have an adventure right from your own home, wherever that may be. As you know, life’s a daily adventure!

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