To see what He sees

June 15, 2011

I mentioned a while ago that we had some photos taken while we were in North Carolina, and yesterday I got the CD of the finished products through the mail slot in our front door. Excited, I popped it into the computer while Adlai pushed himself around the kitchen floor in his walker.  When they’d all loaded, I held my breath as I selected “View as Slideshow.”

Can I be honest?

As the images ticked by, one by one, my smile faded.

I saw a girl who’s carrying leftover baby weight, who’s not trying hard enough to not do the squinty-eyed smile that comes too naturally.  I turned off the computer and moped around the house for a bit, disappointed.

But later, as I played with Adlai on the floor, throwing myself a quiet little pity party, I heard God say, “Look again.”

So I did.

And in that squinty-eyed smile, I saw a girl who’s really and truly happy to have just about everything she’s ever wished for.

In the curvy hips and too-round face, I saw the sort of battle scars of the year I have spent nurturing my son – first inside my body, and now here, in the flesh.

And finally, I saw what I believe God most wanted me to see: not my own shortcomings, but His abundant blessings in my life.  A husband who looks at me like I’m the most beautiful woman in the world, and a son whose smile brings me a depth of joy I never knew was possible.

Photos by Ashley Perry Photography

12 responses to “To see what He sees”

  1. Saana says:

    I love these photos and you look so beautiful!! And I know how you feel! Hugs.
    S xx

  2. Greggan says:

    uhm, EXCUSE ME. I would love to look as good as you look right now! and i aint even had no dadlim youngin! (which by the way, is probably one of the cutest little boys i’ve ever seen) you’re beautiful, Faith. Inside and out! and your family is adorable.

  3. catherine says:

    i love y’all. and you are beautiful. and not just because you look like me. 😉

  4. Heatherbelle says:

    Thank you for your honesty and for encouraging me to ‘look again’ and see all my blessings rather than my ‘flaws’. I think the photos are great Faith – lots of joy and love evident! x

  5. brooke says:

    That is exactly how I’ve been feeling about my body lately! So good to read your words! Very needed! I think the pictures are gorgeous and really love #4!

  6. Helen says:

    You are insane. You look radiant. I love you. Thinking of you tomorrow xxx

  7. Michelle says:

    That’s what I see! Of course, Michelle/Michael means – “one is who like the Lord.” HA! Families are beautiful. xoxo

  8. mama says:

    Faith, Thanks for sharing these. You are so beautiful. Your dad and I were just talking about what a wonderful mama you are to Adlai. You are a gorgeous princess! I love you.

  9. Gail (Kniffen) Martin says:

    I wish I’d had a chance to see you when you were home. Your writing is so good to read – I can “hear” you saying these things. You are absolutely beautiful inside and out. God’s love shines from you and warms even in pictures. Adlai is precious. The pictures of your family are really beautiful with love being evident in each one.

  10. Rachel says:

    You are BEAUTIFUL. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.

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