I knew yesterday that it would take a while for it all to sink in. It was my last day at skirt! and Carolina Bride, and when I went in in the morning, I was stressed, as usual. I was thinking about the stuff I needed to write, who I needed to call, what I needed to get done. Stressed – on my last day.
I talked to my friend Kristin about it over sushi at lunch (mmm, Crunchy Diablo roll...), and she told me to “let it go, dude.” I pointed out that I still feel responsible for what happens – I also know it’s no longer my responsibility. Whoa.
For 14 months, the success of these two magazines has been my responsibility, and now…it’s not?
This morning, when I woke up, it was weird. (Granted, I’ve only been awake for about an hour – so far, unemployment is SWEET!) That’s it. No more rushing into the shower (I always rush), rushing to dry my hair, tripping out to my car as I pull on my boots, realizing I’m almost out of gas and swinging into the Citgo, realizing I skipped breakfast and swinging into Mickey Ds for a coffee and a plain english muffin, driving 40 minutes to work, realizing I forgot my deck pass and calling Kristin to come let me in, and then slinking sheepishly to my desk, hoping no one notices I’m late and makeup-less.
Yeah, Day One is not so bad.
Now, as for what to get up today, here’s what’s on my list so far:
I’m completely open after that. Any suggestions?